Ok. So, I started this post three weeks ago and titled it “Seven and a half weeks left!” And, now, look at the time! I will be back in the US in four weeks and four days – not that I’m counting or anything…
I have started thinking about this wierd idea that I won’t be living in South Asia soon. It still seems quite odd to me. I have been living here for quite a while now. It doesn’t seem like the time has passed quickly. I guess, now, it feels like I’ve always been here, in a way… like this is now my default location on the planet. so strange… I’ve only been here for a little less than nine months, so I guess it doesn’t take long to start to feel like your current life has been and will always be your life.
So, yeah – I’ve been thinking of my life on the other side of planet… the next chapter, my next step, what’s around the bend, yadda, yadda… I’ve been investigating jobs, but I’m thinking I might just exhale, you know? Maybe I’ll work in a tea shop and do some legal temp work for a while. I want, no NEED, to pay my bills, but I want to step back and re-examine my life a bit, you know?
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so. Let me just interupt my thoughts on transition back to America to say that… I’m always hesitant to say too much when I blog. The internet is not private, you know. And, blogging is really a lot like vomiting the contents of your brain out to ANYONE in the world who wants to study your thoughts! yuck!
This is the main reason I have not posted much – ok, Barbara, hardly EVER! This is the main reason that I have been thinking of closing this blog. I do not want to shoot myself in the foot by saying something that might give a future employer a negative impression of me. Plus (!!), I just don’t see why I should throw out all my private thoughts for the entire WORLD to see! This is the main reason that I journal, rather than blog. If I just need to wring my brain free of its weighty sogginess, I usually can attain catharsis through scribbling in the joyous privacy of my own happy, lined notebook. I started journalling when I was fifteen, and I just started journal number 22 on Monday! Isn’t that exciting? I’m planning on having some poor, young orderly read me all the (recorded) pages of my life once I am old and decrepit and (REALLY) deaf, sitting in my cushioned rocker in a nursing home. I can just imagine some young whipper snapper screaming into my tired, used up ear canals, “But, Lord, what should I major in now? I really don’t know what I’m going to do with my life!” I am really looking forward to it.
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Anyway, on to the regularly scheduled program.
I am really looking forward to being back in America. I miss my family. so much! I miss calling my friends whenever I think of them. (I love you!) Yet, I am also glad to have a little more time to do some things that I want to do and see what I want to see before I leave this country for I don’t know how long.
I have wanted to live in this country for years. I remember first becoming interested in this place and its people when I was in fourth grade. Later, in high school and college, as a science geek, I thought I might move here and work as a doctor. During law school, I met many great people who call this country their home. So, last October, my many dreams and ideals met reality when God opened the door to allow me to live here.
Has reality met my many expectations? Not really. Reality is always different than theory. Now, I find myself wishing I had savored the experience a bit more – read more books about the culture here, really reveled in the unique flavor that is this place.
*sigh* But, alas, such is life. You could always do more, see more, etc… But, I would say that I am pretty satisfied with what I have done and seen and experienced. I’ve attended a wedding here (the beginning of it, anyway), worn traditional clothing, traveled to Thailand to see friends I haven’t seen for several years, traveled to various spots in India to sightsee (including the Taj Mahal and Mother Teresa’s Mission) and to visit friends, visited rural areas of this country, seen most of the tourist sites in this city, and (most importantly) made some wonderful and life-long friends. God has really blessed me with some interesting experiences during my almost nine months here. Hopefully, He’ll let me pack in a few more adventures before I return to America.
Then, on August 3, 2008, I begin a whole new set of adventures – starting with my childhood best friend’s wedding in Ohio, followed by a vacation in Michigan with Bill’s family and my family the following week! I’m excited!
But, don’t worry. I know I’m not there yet, and I truly am glad for where I am right this moment. :-)